I am writing this primarily as a journal entry, as it has weighed on my mind for some time now.
Two years ago, I suffered a physical injury.
The recovery was long and hard, but nothing compared to the things to come.
As the expertise of my surgeon and therapists were being used to the fullest degree.
My energies were put into regaining the use of my hand, and every finger on it.
After two years, I felt as if, I had gained 100% recovery.
Virtually unscaithed.
Just before my two year anniversary of the injury.
A tendon ruptured and I was sent quickly back into surgery, twice.... and therapy.
After my six week mark, and discharge from therapy...I bought a new road bike!
In the process, I ruptured the grafted tendon.
Thrown back into surgery......and therapy.
This time...not so good.
The surgeon could not make the repair, because of where it ruptured.
So I have lost one tendon and partial use of this finger.
Also, after a long recovery, I have also lost use of the other(DIP) tendon on the finger.
May I say, this has been my "Gethsemene"
I have suffered many things....but this has been a doozie!
It's hard to believe it's been 2 1/2 years since that initial injury.
It's hard to believe my family ate prepared food, had baths at night, got tucked in, been given hugs, brushed teeth, and have survived this emotional and physical rollar-coaster.
But....yesterday was my birthday.
And I have decided to turn over a new leaf.
I have spent many long, and painful, nights up....thinking.
Thinking about how to over come this trial in my life.
How to find "myself" in all of this.
How to define who I am now and how to move forward.
And yesterday......I decided.
This is who I am now.
So I have a buggered-up finger and hand.
So, I can't play the piano well anymore.
So, I can't hold a tennis racket, baseball or bat.
So what, no more push-ups....or pull ups.
Big deal...no rings on that finger.
And so what, that I can't open pickle jars.
But, I have many things to look forward too, as I continue on my journey.
But I found this today.
And I think this sums it up nicely.
Click Here.
To all of those, who may be suffering, or feel discouraged.
Here's to better days.
Two years ago, I suffered a physical injury.
The recovery was long and hard, but nothing compared to the things to come.
As the expertise of my surgeon and therapists were being used to the fullest degree.
My energies were put into regaining the use of my hand, and every finger on it.
After two years, I felt as if, I had gained 100% recovery.
Virtually unscaithed.
Just before my two year anniversary of the injury.
A tendon ruptured and I was sent quickly back into surgery, twice.... and therapy.
After my six week mark, and discharge from therapy...I bought a new road bike!
In the process, I ruptured the grafted tendon.
Thrown back into surgery......and therapy.
This time...not so good.
The surgeon could not make the repair, because of where it ruptured.
So I have lost one tendon and partial use of this finger.
Also, after a long recovery, I have also lost use of the other(DIP) tendon on the finger.
May I say, this has been my "Gethsemene"
I have suffered many things....but this has been a doozie!
It's hard to believe it's been 2 1/2 years since that initial injury.
It's hard to believe my family ate prepared food, had baths at night, got tucked in, been given hugs, brushed teeth, and have survived this emotional and physical rollar-coaster.
But....yesterday was my birthday.
And I have decided to turn over a new leaf.
I have spent many long, and painful, nights up....thinking.
Thinking about how to over come this trial in my life.
How to find "myself" in all of this.
How to define who I am now and how to move forward.
And yesterday......I decided.
This is who I am now.
So I have a buggered-up finger and hand.
So, I can't play the piano well anymore.
So, I can't hold a tennis racket, baseball or bat.
So what, no more push-ups....or pull ups.
Big deal...no rings on that finger.
And so what, that I can't open pickle jars.
But, I have many things to look forward too, as I continue on my journey.
But I found this today.
And I think this sums it up nicely.
Click Here.
To all of those, who may be suffering, or feel discouraged.
Here's to better days.
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